The whole story.

I have decided to start a new blog dedicated to my weight loss journey!! I am a very private person, especially when it comes to anything involving my weight. Up until a few short months ago, my husband of 4 years did not have a clue of what I weighed. I was so ashamed. I figured if he knew how much I weighed then he would know just how big I was. I had convinced myself that I didn't look as heavy as I weighed. I carry it well. I'm just "big boned". Granted, I come from a family of big hipped and bummed ladies, but still. I needed to own up. I have always been bigger. I wasn't fat growing up, but I wasn't one of the perfect skinny girls. I have been trying to lose weight for as long as I can remember. I am a classic yo-yo dieter to a T. I was never able to stick with it for more than a couple months. Even so, I wasn't concerned with my weight enough to really want to change. Around the time I met my future Husband I got diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome. I gained 30 pounds in just a couple months. They put me on birth control pills which made me gain another 10. It also made me a crazy hormonal wreck. So, I got off of it after a couple months. After my Husband and I got married we knew we wanted to start a family right away. We got pregnant when we had been married for three months. We were ecstatic! Unfortunately, I was soon very sick with "morning sickness" I was in and out of the hospital for IV's and was diagnosed with Hyperemesis gravidarum. It was rough. I lost 20 pounds the first trimester. Luckily, I was better around 5 months. I had quit my job when I was sick. So now I was home all day. We didn't have a second car, so I was stuck. I have always been a binge eater, but it was bad. I joke that I ate as much as a linebacker. It wasn't far from the truth. The pounds packed on fast. By the time I had my daughter I was over 200 lbs. Until now,I had never told anyone besides my Mom and recently my husband. I am only 5'4. I was so big. I hate looking at my birth pictures. I couldn't even recognize myself. Over the next year I lost a bit of weight Yo-Yo dieting and was down to around a 170 when I got pregnant with my second. This time around I ate healthier and did yoga throughout. It wasn't much, but it helped so much. I was much happier. Plus, I didn't have severe morning sickness that time around. Even so, I ended back at 210 pounds. We delivered another beautiful daughter. I soon realized that my normal baby blues weren't going away though. I went to my doctor and he diagnosed me with post partum depression. Coming from a family with mental illness, I always swore it wouldn't happen to me. Mind over matter right? I couldn't take medicine because I was breast feeding. I knew I needed to do something about it though. I decided to start exercising a bit. I always felt better when I did. I then did a 90 day challenge with my friends (The Bikini Body Mommy challenge) and lost 20 pounds. Right after it ended, we moved to be closer to my parents. I joined Planet Fitness. They are affordable and nice. I went off and on but was confused and intimidated. They offer unlimited group fitness training. I decided to sign up for one where he makes you a personalized plan. It has changed my workouts completely!!! I told him my goal was to be able to run and to lift heavy. He showed me how to use all the machines and gave me a workout schedule. I have been working out 5 or 6 days a week for over a month now. I am starting to see results. It is taking a lot longer then I'd like, but I am still doing it every day. It has now become something I crave. It's my free time. I am also using the My Fitness Pal app to keep track of everything. I have been doing my best to eat clean 80% of the time. It's hard but I always feel better when I do. I am so excited to finally be on this journey to becoming fit and healthy the good ol' fashioned way. I hope you join me. Support is so crucial. I love being able to talk to and hopefully inspire other women. I gather so much motivation and hope from other mom's weight loss blogs. I hope I can help someone. That will make all of this embarrassment worth it. Just remember it's not always easy but it is worth it.




At my heaviest



In the middle of my 90 day challenge

Now. I am at 163.